Monday, 22 August 2011

A revelation and a decision

I had what I can only describe as a 'revelation' yesterday. It was a sudden and very deep insight into our relationship and everything that has happened (not just recently, but over the entire course of our marriage). Coming to this realisation was incredibly painful, but the pain went away again as quickly as it had come, and I was left with a feeling of overwhelming peace and wellbeing. I now feel able to move on with my life. That healing ritual really did work!

One more immediate and practical effect of this revelation is that the thought of seeing Iain again no longer fills me with dread, and I know that together we can do what we need to do in order to disentangle two lives with the minimum of fuss and stress. Later this week we're going to the solicitor's and the bank together and we're going to sort through the stuff we've still got in storage together, and decide who wants what. 

I've made the decision to move back to the UK. I did briefly consider moving to Australia, but the pull of friends and family back home made my decision for me. I've got a lot to sort out here before I can leave, including getting more work done on the house so that it can get signed off, and then selling it, but I'm hoping to be back in the UK before the end of the year.

I'm going to take a break from this blog for a week or two. For one thing, I'm going to be incredibly busy, and for another, I don't want this to turn into a 'divorce drama' blog. You visit here because you're into photography. I'll be back in a couple of weeks and get the 365 project back on track.

Love from Helen


  1. you're making amazingly fast progress through this experience, Helen. Congrats on showing your true strength, grit and beauty. (and p.s. i visit here because I'm into seeing your view of the world : ) - melissa

  2. New Zealand's loss will be our gain, just wish you could have returned under much happier circumstances. Glad the healing ritual worked for you! (Yes I still suffer from exclaimamotous! or whatever it's called!)

  3. I'll be here when you return, and I am looking forward to that return.

  4. Just want to wish you luck with all you got to do.